You never lost me.

It was admittance that after everything that happened, after everything she saw, she was still mine. It completely eclipsed what I felt over Vivienne’s disappearance, something I thought ought to make me feel guilty. However, all I felt was a distinct sense of gratefulness that Sofia was back at The Shade with me. Not long before she arrived, I was hell bent on punishing her for being the reason behind my losing Vivienne. Now that she was here, everything inside me was screaming for a way to atone myself for the things I’d been doing since she left.

The bathroom door opened and she emerged wearing a towel around her slender form, her long auburn hair still dripping wet. I caught my breath at the sight of her. Is she really so oblivious to the effect she has on me?

“I can’t find the hair dryer…”

I frowned. “I had it removed.” Along with everything that reminded me of you.

Her nose wrinkled. “I’ll have to towel dry then.”

She headed for the bed and picked up the clothes she laid out over it before she went for her bath. Her proximity was testing all my self-control. Reminding me of how comfortable we used to be around each other, she went straight to the walk-in closet to get dressed. It didn’t take long for her to reappear, wearing a red button down blouse over tight jeans, combing her hair with her fingers. As she came closer, her eyes rose to meet mine and she took a seat next to me.

A sighed heavily. “What now, Derek Novak?”

Unable to keep my hands away from her, my palm ran the length from her knee cap to her thigh while I brushed a strand of her still wet hair away from her face. “I don’t know. I’m honestly still trying to figure out if you’re really here or if this is all just a dream.”

She held the back of the hand I was using to caress her face, as if relishing the feel of my touch. “Vivienne convinced me to come.”

Though it was painful to hear her say my twin’s name, it didn’t quite have the infuriating effect I thought it should’ve. Something about having Sofia around made everything that was going on feel so much lighter, so much easier to bear. Sofia must’ve noticed my unease at the mention of Vivienne, because her free hand squeezed the hand I had over her thigh.

“I’m so sorry, Derek. I know how much she meant to you.”

“I don’t know if she’s still alive or not. Either way, I’m going to make the hunters pay…”

Her cheeks paled at my words. “This cycle of vengeance between hunters and vampires… will it ever end?”

I withdrew from her touch, running one hand through my hair and fisting the other over my knee. “You can’t talk me out of this, Sofia. Vivienne is too precious for me not to avenge her.”

“I’m not trying to talk you out of anything, Derek. I doubt that I could make you do anything you don’t want to do.”

I held back the urge to scoff at her words. “You underestimate yourself, Sofia. You’ve consistently been able to make me do things I wouldn’t normally do.”

She chuckled. “Oh yeah? Like what?”

“I just spared Ashley’s life, didn’t I?”

She fell silent at the mention of her friend. My gut clenched at the thought of what I was doing when Sofia suddenly walked in on me – just another addition to the growing pile of issues I was contending with. This one, in particular, I wasn’t yet willing to talk about.

Desperate to divert her attention, I brushed my thumb over her lightly freckled cheekbone. I loved seeing how her cheeks once again blushed red the moment I touched her. “I still can’t believe that you came back.”

“Vivienne made quite a compelling case…”

“Tell me what happened, Sofia… Between you and Viv…”

“Could we talk somewhere else? Please? I look around here and all I can think of is…” she paused.

…Ashley, my mind finished for her. I nodded. “Of course.” I rose from the bed and she took my hand as we walked out of the room. “Where do you want to go?” I asked when we reached the living room.

“The Sun Room maybe?” she eyed me hopefully.

My heart broke as I told her the truth. “I had it destroyed and stripped to a blank room.”

“Why?!”

“It reminded me too much of you. I thought I’d never get you back, Sofia. I wanted to forget.”

She paused, disappointed, before asking, “Did it work? Did you forget?”

“I couldn’t no matter how I tried.”

“Good.” She gave me one curt nod. “You should never forget me.”

Something akin to delight sparked in her eyes when she saw my smile. To my surprise she threw herself right at me and pressed her lips against mine. I was frozen with shock for a few seconds, just enjoying the sensation and taste of her lips on mine before I was brought back to my senses. I wrapped my arms around her waist and lifted her up so she wouldn’t have to stand on her tiptoes. I returned her kiss with fervor, releasing all the pent-up longing I had for her. I began walking forward until I had her backed up against a wall, my hands beginning to move along her waist, her hips and her thighs.

By the time she pulled away from me, we were both panting for breath. Her eyes focused on me.

“What was that?” I asked in between breaths.

“I couldn’t help it. You shouldn’t have kissed me before I left The Shade. I’ve wanted the taste of your lips on mine from the moment I woke up on that damn shore in Cancun,” she admitted, her cheeks flushed pink, her lips swollen red. “I’m sorry.”