Suddenly shamed, she peeled his fingers from her arms. “We won’t fight anymore.”

“We won’t?” he asked, a dark brow arching in skepticism.

“I understand now. I thought I did before. But I didn’t.” Despite her claims, she had harbored hopes that their marriage of convenience might lead to something more. A marriage in the truest sense.

He stared, his jaw flexing as he waited.

Moistening her lips, she announced, “You ended up with the wrong sister—”

“Don’t drag her into this,” he cut in.

Her heart twisted. “Do you love her still?” she asked, knowing she sounded jealous and foolish, but she couldn’t stop herself. She had to know if he still loved Madeline. If Madeline would always be there, a wall between them, she best find out now.

“She has nothing to do with us.”

Not precisely the answer she sought.

“She has everything to do with us. You’re punishing me because of her—”

“That’s not true.”

“No?” She angled her head. “If Aurora had turned out to be another woman, any woman besides me, would you be sleeping alone tonight?”

She waited, her breath lodged deep in her chest.

He stared at her in silence, his eyes dark and unfathomable. A muscle ticked in his jaw, the only sign that she perhaps struck a nerve.

The silence grew, a terrible thing between them, confirming that it was Jane he found objectionable. Finished standing before him, an offering that he would refuse as if foul, she swallowed down the thickness in her throat. Gathering the scraps of dignity left to her, she thrust her chin forward. “Forgive me for disturbing you.” 7 won’t do so again.

“Jane,” he called, but she had already passed through the door. Even knowing he would never cross its threshold, she locked it behind her, collapsing against its solid length, her chest heaving as if she just raced a great distance.

He knocked, the wood reverberating at her back. “Jane, let’s talk about—”

“We’ve talked enough. Good night, Seth.”

She held her breath, waiting to see if he would say more, unsure whether she wanted him to or not… knowing she wanted to hear what he could never say.

She pressed the base of her palms to her burning eyes and willed the pain away, choking back a sob as she commanded herself to forget she had ever loved Seth. That she still did.

The sob swelled higher in her throat, threatening to burst free as that realization washed over her.

She had never stopped loving him. Even after all these years.

The journey back to Town was a miserable affair, even without the waves of tension, palpable as fog, swirling around them. She stared out the window, watching the rolling countryside, convinced she could never look Seth in the face again. Not without reliving the shame of his rejection, at any rate.

The swaying and rolling motion of the carriage heightened the sickness she had thought mild and endurable at the cottage. A queasy belly that cramped and twisted insistently soon pushed thoughts of Seth from her mind. After the first hour, she fell limp against the carriage wall, slipping in and out of misery-induced sleep.

“Are you well?” Seth asked at one point, his hand falling on her shoulder.

She whimpered at his touch, as if it somehow compounded her misery.

“Fine,” she mumbled without opening her eyes, concentrating on not retching all over the carriage floor. “Just tired.”

At some point, her dozing must have turned into a full-fledged slumber because the next thing she knew she was being lifted from the carriage and carried up the steps of the St. Claire townhouse.

Her cheek rested weakly against Seth’s hard chest, the thudding of his heart filling her ear as her head lolled with the pound of his footsteps. She lifted her head, determined to escape his comforting nearness, to neither need nor want it, but that still left the hard bands of muscle holding her securely, and the unyielding breadth of a very male chest against her. She gave up the fight, telling herself she took no pleasure in his holding her.

He deposited her upon a large tester in the room that she had occupied prior to taking their vows.

Relieved to be free of the rollicking carriage, she curled on her side, closing her eyes as she sank into the down-filled mattress, so grateful she did not even protest when he removed her slippers and stockings.

Slipping her hand beneath her cheek, she released a shuddery sigh as warm fingers squeezed the blood back into her feet. “Mmm,” she moaned, rolling onto her back, afraid to open her eyes and find him gone and the pleasant sensation a dream.

He rubbed deep, languorous circles over the arch of her feet. His fingers slid up, those marvelous thumbs moving over her calves in long, penetrating strokes until she felt boneless, a weakened mass of her former self.

Instinctively her knees parted and she groaned as he moved up even more, his fingers digging deep, sweeping strokes along her quivering thighs. Her hands stretched out to her sides, fisting the brocade counterpane as small noises of pleasure escaped her.

She opened her eyes, letting herself look at him at last.

Seth stood poised over her, hands digging into her thighs, a feverish look in his eyes that brought a rush of moisture between her thighs. Her body reacted, an aching throb tugging low in her belly, demanding and insistent. She bit her lip, wanting badly to assuage that ache—wanting him to pound it into submission as only he could.

“Jane!” a voice intruded.

Seth’s hands dropped from her thighs as though burned and he took a hasty step back.

Anna charged into the room, her broad faced creased and lined with worry. “I heard you were carried inside the house. Are you unwell?” The older woman looked Seth over accusingly.

Jane rearranged her skirts, sitting up. “I’m fine. Only a little travel-weary.”

“Hmm,” Anna murmured, casting Seth a sidelong glance.

Blinking with the realization that Anna stood before her, Jane exclaimed, “Anna! What are you doing here?”

Anna nodded at Seth, folding her hands before her substantial figure.

Jane’s gaze jerked to Seth.

He gave only a curt nod.

Anna explained, “Before you left for your honeymoon, his lordship hired me.”

Jane stared hard at Seth. “You did that?”

He shrugged one shoulder. “It was a small matter.”

Why would he do something so thoughtful, so generous… for her? And before they ever left Town. Before that wretched night when she had thrown herself at him and shamed herself.

“You do look peaked,” Anna observed, her sturdy, callused palm brushing Jane’s cheek. “Are you feeling poorly?”

“I’ll leave you now,” Seth announced. Looking to Anna, he advised, “Do see that she rests and eats.”

“Yes, my lord.” Anna sketched an awkward curtsey, watching as he strode from the room. As soon as the door clicked shut, Anna whirled about. “Out with it now. What has he done to you?”

“Nothing. I’m merely a bit under the weather,” Jane confessed. “I’m sure it’s no more than exhaustion from the journey.”

“It’s the babe,” Anna pronounced, shaking her head with a dogged resolve. “Your mother was violently ill with both you and your sister—especially you.”

Jane’s hand flew to her belly. “Violently ill?” she echoed, praying it would not be so with her.

She did not want Seth to think her weak and sickly. He already thought low of her. She would have that he not view the mother of his child as frail and unfit for the rigors of motherhood.

“Come, lie down. I shall send for a tray.”

“No,” Jane said, her voice falling hard. “I won’t have him think I need special care.”

Anna observed her keenly, lowering herself to the bed beside Jane. The bed dipped from her added weight and Jane had to stop herself from rolling to the edge. “You seem to care a great deal about what he thinks of you.”

Heat warmed her cheeks. Jane splayed a hand over her belly and rubbed idly. “Clearly I am not immune to him. He is an attractive man.”

“And that’s the sum of it, then.” Anna smirked, cocking a bushy gray brow. “He’s merely…

attractive.”

“Of course,” Jane said, fighting the wave of emotion that told her she lied.

Leaning down, Anna removed the pins from Jane’s hair, shaking the heavy mass free. “Rest. All this excitement…” She clucked and shook her salt-and-peppered head in disapproval. “First that rushed business of a wedding—”

“I had a church wedding once,” Jane interrupted. “It’s not everything.”

“Then that ill-conceived honeymoon. You’ve no business traveling in your condition,” Anna continued as if she had not spoken. “You need peace and quiet. Let your mind and body settle.”

With a decisive nod, Anna shoved to her feet. Jane grabbed her hand, stopping her.

“Anna…” she hesitated, scanning the woman’s heavily lined face, needing approval from the woman who had been more of a mother to her than her own. “Have I disappointed you?” Her hand curled over her stomach protectively, almost as if she wanted to shelter the child within.

Shock crossed Anna’s face. “You? Never.” Moving close, she smoothed a chapped palm over Jane’s brow. “You’re a good girl. Misused by the very people God intended to love you, is the sorry truth. You’ll have a child to love now. Who will love you back.” Her lips twitched and her eyes twinkled with humor. “And you’re with the boy you always loved. You deserve no less.”

Jane shook her head fiercely, seeing no humor in her present predicament.

Anna continued, “You may fool yourself, but I know you. You never stopped loving that boy.”

Jane fought the sudden, infuriating burn of tears in her eyes, wishing she could deny the claim.

Swiping the back of her hand against her eyes, resolve steeled her nerves. She may love him, but she would not torment herself with the hopes that he could love her back.

Seth sought refuge in his bedchamber. He needed to greet his sister, but not before he collected himself. Not before he gained control of his raging lust.

Pacing the room’s length, he dragged both hands through his hair, cursing when he realized how they shook.

 Damn her. And damn him. He couldn’t even touch her in the most innocent way without fondling her. How was he to keep his hands to himself?

He had defined the parameters of their marriage. He could not change the rules now. Not without looking a bloody ass. Not without revealing himself weak and without control—precisely the type of man he vowed not to become. He’d lost control before. He would not permit a woman to hold such power over him again.

Not that he needed to worry. Even if he failed and succumbed, she would never give him another chance. Not after he rebuffed her. He’d seen the look in her eyes that night. The utter devastation.

The deep hurt. He had felt its echo in his own heart, so much that he almost surrendered. Almost caved and took her in his arms, claimed her body as he yearned.

She hardly looked at him now. And when she did, her gaze flitted over him as if he were nothing—something to be scraped off the bottom of her shoe.

He sighed. At least it kept her from coming to his room in the dead of night garbed in a nightgown that did more to accentuate her curves than disguise.

He could never survive that. Not again. It had killed him to watch her walk away when every inch of him wanted to strip her bare and sink himself to the hilt in her softness, to join with the body that haunted his nights.

If only the woman who drove him mad with desire weren’t Jane—weren’t his wife.

If only he didn’t feel his control slip each time he looked at her.